I guess in my earlier teenage years it was hard for me to accept the life I live. The ministerial life, as cliche as it may sound: "I wouldnt have it any other way", I honestly wouldn't. With all the hardship, sacrifices, expectations that comes along with it, it truly is a beautiful life. Travelling to a new destination every few years, I used to see it as putting my life on hold, or leaving my life behind. I would grieve in silence in letting my former ways behind. But now I see it as being able to see the beauty of different people, culture, places I come across. It lets me marvel at the good things in life. It helps me appreciate the things others would take for granted. The high expectations and standards that have made us to seem perfect.. That is added weight put on us. So despite whether they think we make mistakes or not, we do. We're human. I know and understand though that that is the way it will be. There's more to it than what I've just said. I may have exaggerated or underplayed my words, I dont know how you see it. But just remember that whatever you're thinking right now, I will always consider this the greatest blessing.
"If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you." Liz Gilbert, Eat Pray Love
The above quote does not go for my life, but life in general.
Life is a journey, where letting go can be hard, but it makes room for learning, and changing. Everything happens for your own good, but it's how you look at it though. Give your heart to where you are now, that when you do look back, you're not silently grieving and terribly missing, but have an uplifted heart that a moment like that, or a certain person gave you overwhelming joy even for a short while. Finding the beauty in everything around you, finding beauty in the people you come across. Accepting flaws as what makes someone. Pacing yourself for those ambitions you aspire in doing. Giving without expecting in return, and taking in what life has to offer.
Find God. Pray always. "In all your way, acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" Proverbs 3:6
In my earlier teenage years, I used to tell myself that no one will ever understand unless they've been through it. And now I tell myself that no one will ever understand unless they've been through it. Now, the difference is.. my perspective. Go figure :) Maybe I'll write about this another time. For now, I gotta run some errands and canvass for an investment in a guitar. You should go watch Eat, Pray, Love ;) Have a good day xx