And what better people to turn to for fashion inspiration than the Olsen twins.
Always been a fan of these ladies, always will be. My biggest fashion icons.
Bohemian, Chic, Classy, Edgy, Bold. They got it all.
I think if you were to leave, to fulfill someone else's dreams, to complete them... to have found a significant other, I think I may well be lost. I kinda wish now you'd find your way out of my system.
I've been on quite a number of roadtrips these past few months. I am not a big fan of road trips, and to be honest, it's because being in a car for hours does not give me fulfillment for my day, my hair and skin goes pretty oily and gross and I ALWAYS get sick after coming home from one. But anyways, they really are a must-experience, for one thing is the views along the way. Roadtrips are never complete without capturing a simple photograph along the road, postcard styles.
Regina to Estevan. (August)
Swiftcurrent to Regina. (August)
Vancouver to Washington, USA. (September)
One thing I loved about Washington, the tree's are so giant, fresh and beautiful.
For the one that's always giving me sad faces when he misses me,
I like how it is right now, and I'll leave it at that. We both have our own world's to live. Most day's of the week, we would meet half way to share our stories and time. When together, eyes against screen, that will be the only time I have for you. And when we part, I'll live my life, without letting my deceiving heart trigger thoughts of you. Until we talk again (which is most probably tomorrow), this is your chance to miss me, and I'll try my hardest not to miss you.
In other words, I'm letting this go. The distance just causes a little complication.
I was hoping I would be better for Saturday's Grand Evangelical Mission for our church. I was chosen to be a receptionist rather than perform my duty in the choir, considering I'm an "english-speaker". (Majority of people in my locale are "tagalog-speakers", so they needed my help) I was chucking dumps the past 5 days like 5 times a day :\ and they werent your normal dumps, nahh mean? ..anyways I'd prayed I'd get better by GEM. I happened to get better that afternoon, surprisingly, and thankfully.
Well, It was definitely a successful GEM. Our locale has a serial number of 189. We managed to invite 244. Amazing work of efforts, prayers with all help from God.
I also got to meet the sexy brown boy I've been eyeing, and had a good chat with him. He's pretty gentlemanly and charming, but didnt seem really interested nor devoted in church activities by what i eavesdropped him saying to his brother. But Im glad I got to see his true light, now I dont have to keep obsessing over him. I finally also had this overwhelming sense of belonging within the kadbins. Its hard enough communicating with them when they speak tagalog and get all awkward or cautious when I'm around. But tonight was different, with the efforts i usually make to get to know some of them, they finally approached me.
I also heard that in the past 5 years it has started snowing in October. Our GEM on November 5, it still hadn't snowed. Right after everything was finished, and everyone would've been at home, 11:30pm, it started snowing. Our prayers were truly heard and answered. Now to enjoy the beautiful snow. Thank you God, on behalf of the locale and I.
I guess in my earlier teenage years it was hard for me to accept the life I live. The ministerial life, as cliche as it may sound: "I wouldnt have it any other way", I honestly wouldn't. With all the hardship, sacrifices, expectations that comes along with it, it truly is a beautiful life. Travelling to a new destination every few years, I used to see it as putting my life on hold, or leaving my life behind. I would grieve in silence in letting my former ways behind. But now I see it as being able to see the beauty of different people, culture, places I come across. It lets me marvel at the good things in life. It helps me appreciate the things others would take for granted. The high expectations and standards that have made us to seem perfect.. That is added weight put on us. So despite whether they think we make mistakes or not, we do. We're human. I know and understand though that that is the way it will be. There's more to it than what I've just said. I may have exaggerated or underplayed my words, I dont know how you see it. But just remember that whatever you're thinking right now, I will always consider this the greatest blessing.
"If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you." Liz Gilbert, Eat Pray Love
The above quote does not go for my life, but life in general.
Life is a journey, where letting go can be hard, but it makes room for learning, and changing. Everything happens for your own good, but it's how you look at it though. Give your heart to where you are now, that when you do look back, you're not silently grieving and terribly missing, but have an uplifted heart that a moment like that, or a certain person gave you overwhelming joy even for a short while. Finding the beauty in everything around you, finding beauty in the people you come across. Accepting flaws as what makes someone. Pacing yourself for those ambitions you aspire in doing. Giving without expecting in return, and taking in what life has to offer.
Find God. Pray always. "In all your way, acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" Proverbs 3:6
In my earlier teenage years, I used to tell myself that no one will ever understand unless they've been through it. And now I tell myself that no one will ever understand unless they've been through it. Now, the difference is.. my perspective. Go figure :) Maybe I'll write about this another time. For now, I gotta run some errands and canvass for an investment in a guitar. You should go watch Eat, Pray, Love ;) Have a good day xx
“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
“We search for happiness everywhere, but we are like Tolstoy's fabled beggar who spent his life sitting on a pot of gold, under him the whole time. Your treasure--your perfection--is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the buy commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the silence of the heart.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love